2009-11-14 , 4:45 p.m.
Peace....
I tried to write about it in my last entry in vain.
I know nothing about it. The concept eludes my grasp like water flowing through one's fingers.
No matter how hard you squeeze your digits together...Try to keep any liquid from escaping. How desperately you need it to remain in your palms... It will eventually seep through.
I can't hold on to it.
I don't even know how to begin....
I can't quantify the level of despair I feel in this moment. Or how earnestly my soul cries for God to save me. Because I can't take much more.
There's hardly anything left for me to hold on to.
I'm clasping... Scrambling. Digging my nails in.... Trying to get a grip....
And failing... Oh Lord... Am I failing.
